Lots of feelings on this my last day in California. Having already said goodbye to the beach (“growing up here we have only one definition of beauty”), car packed, books and bags and cast-iron skillet and good things in jars and mattress rolled up across the backseat.

“Is it totally nuts to drive across the Southwest in July alone?”

I am skeptical of driving any desert in summer and rely on

“Imagine living in a world where there is no domination, where females and males are not alike or even always equal, but where a vision of mutuality is the ethos shaping our interaction. Imagine living in a world where we can all be who we are, a world of peace and possibility.” (bell hooks, [Feminism is for Everybody](http://excoradfeminisms.files.wordpress.com/2010/03/bell_hooks-%20 feminism_is_for_everybody.pdf))

BETTER YET, GREAT

translanguaging global logistics pollution plastics

a certain kind of stamina being built up and exercised a certain support of a certain petroleum industry

Orsaken till åskan är spänningar mellan den varma luft som ligger över Sverige och ett kallare område över Danmark.[1]

Will i find the things i need in Iowa

to “disentangle the body from the straightjacket of the nationally- and state-sanctioned body-politic?” (Erin Manning, Politics of Touch)

[1] Sydsvenskan, 3 augusti 2014.

currently no more or less susceptible to surveillance than the internet itself (“Oakland's Sudo Mesh Looks to Counter Censorship and Digital Divide With a Mesh Network”, Techpresident, 21 July 2014.)

“No i think the world is pretty safe.”

Japanese people from all ages and walks of life join large protest marches unreported by the media. Entire classes with nose bleeds at the same time

It’s neither here nor there / it’s here and there – total blackberry annihilation

Important mainly because of your interaction with messages in the conversation.

weather or not – there was – was there – a chance at / closeness – i made / mud

The feminine marker can also serve to express tenderness or sympathy [1]

“I believe that unless we treat each other with tenderness and care now the revolution won’t come” (Francesca Lisette, What I Want: A Manifesto for Revolutionary Tenderness).

Due to the cultural assimilation of Turkish immigrants in host countries, not all ethnic Turkish immigrants speak the language with native fluency [2]

“Vi er mange der ikke kan finde ro. Er evige rastløse. For stillet over for valget om enten/eller vælger mange intet istedet for både/og”.[3]

the adjectives “var” ("existent") and “yok” ("non–existent") are used in many cases where english would use "there is" or "have", e.g. süt yok ("there is no milk", lit. "(the) milk (is) non–existent") [3]

[1] “Amharic language”, Wikipedia.

[2] [“Turkish 101."](http://www.101languages.net/turkish/geography.html

[3] “Jeg ville gerne skrive om Yahya Hassan, men har vi tid?” Zaki Youssef, 8 oktober 2013.

i’m so bitter you ought to drink me before dinner

“Logistics, we might say, is war by other means, war by means of trade” (Jasper Bernes, “Logistics, counterlogistics, and the communist prospect”, Endnotes 3).

NOÛS SOMMES Jesus crowdsurfing on a bedsheet suspended by angels, intestines uncoiling; an angel wedding a healer by eating his arm over an unidentifiable female body; the pope holding his hand up to his face which is an ass in transparent underwear leading a constellation, all of it in black and white and shades of grey. #joiesauvage #amnésie #éternalretour (Sandra Ghosn, NOUS-SOMMES)

-If you are cutting wood or something, you should be careful. It is at least forty-five minutes to the nearest hospital.[1]

NOÛS SOMMES Jesus crowdsurfing on a bedsheet suspended by angels, intestines uncoiling; an angel wedding a healer by eating his arm over an unidentifiable female body; the pope holding his hand up to his face which is an ass in transparent underwear leading a constellation, all of it in black and white and shades of grey. #joiesauvage #amnésie #éternalretour (Sandra Ghosn, NOUS-SOMMES)

-If you are cutting wood or something, you should be careful. It is at least forty-five minutes to the nearest hospital.[1]

because you can’t always love somebody
and their work

but i don’t want to
don’t i want to

“i think i will never fall in love”

[1] Antti Majava at [Mustarinda Residency](http://www.mustarinda.fi/en/society/residency, winter 2014.

no more boyfriends

“Some people say women don’t get enough job training, but in reality we have the longest and most meticulous training of all. We are being trained to work ‘for love.’” (“If Women Were Paid for All They Do,” from All Work and No Pay: Women, Housework and the Wages Due, Power of Women Collective, 1975).

false intimacy (Brian Whitener, Tarafficker Press)

casual intimacy

my life in santa cruz

the 90s

the animal is in the world like water in water (Leslie Scalapino & Kiki Smith, Granary Books, 2010)

“i have this idea that weirdness is very important” (Nico Peck, “imagination as activist tool”).

“that weirdness will save the world” (Peck)

because when you’re getting free you’re completely different